From self-hate, bulimia and self-harming to self-love
It is with tears of joy that I begin to share my experience with Tamika Hilder and The Path of the Goddess. I cannot thank Tamika and her team enough for the gifts they have given me.
My name is Hanna and I am 22 years old. I was at rock bottom prior to level 1. Thoughts of suicide and escaping this world flashed by me on a regular basis. I was self-harming daily and had given up all hope of ‘curing’ my years of bulimia. Endless days of binging and vomiting and self-hatred. I hated my body, my mind, my life. That was until I met Tamika and embarked on the Path of the Goddess journey.
To this day, I am forever grateful. The knowledge and skills I learnt not only empowered me but changed my life forever. Tamika taught me the necessary skills to overcome all that I had thought was impossible. I learnt how to cope with my feelings and how to release them with such ease and grace, it is a miracle. I am still in disbelief of how I have switched my world upside down and have created an entirely new life for myself.
I now wake up everyday with hope. Hope for myself, hope for my future, knowing I am the creator of my life and I can choose how I want to live. I can truly say, if it wasn’t for Tamika, I do not think I would be here today. If you or anyone is at rock bottom or struggling to live day by day, I cannot recommend The Path of the Goddess enough. It is with an open heart that I say this is the best thing I have ever experienced in my life.
Hanna Wyper, 22, Gold Coast
Health and Wealth Coach, Entrepreneur
Found a calling to repeat the program as found it to be such a transformational experience
Hi, My name is Elizabeth Connolly,
I have done Level 1 twice why because I found that I wanted to do more at Level one. I found a calling to go back and repeat it again as I found it to be such a transformational Experience.
Before I found path of the Goddess I was looking and seeking out something that resonated for me. I have been on my spiritual journey for some time now and had gotten to a point where I knew that I wanted to expand myself even further than I was. So, I went along to and information day and new that path of the Goddess was part of the new direction I needed to take in order to get back in touch with my Divine Feminine.
The weekend itself was amazing both times round. The first time was very scary as I was doing it all on my own and knew no other person attending, however that changed quickly as all the women attending started to connect on a deeper level with each other. I did a lot of clearing over the weekend with lots of tears and letting go. The processes that are used to help you shift stuff and clear stuff are very powerful, a lot of them I had never encountered before and found them to be very effective. The one thing you had to do was trust in the process and in yourself and just let go.
Through the whole weekend I felt nothing but love and support from the team helping Tamika and from Tamika herself. She holds a lot of wisdom and experience as well as Love, Compassion and Empathy.
Repeating level one for me was Just something I knew I wanted to do and was just as powerful as the first time. This time it was different because I knew the Team and I had different stuff come up for me to clear. I had 5 months between the two of them and it was amazing for me to see how much I had changed between the two programs. The last Level 1 program was 6 months ago.
I now am part of the Online Moon Cycle Support Program which is awesome as it helps me to stay on track and gives me support during my journey. It has also helped me deal with ongoing challenges that arise. Since doing this program, I feel as though I deal with my challenges much better. I am much more aware my triggers and blocks, and I now have tools to help me clear heal them allowing me to move forward in my life. I do one of the womb-breathing practices that Tamika taught us every day as it helps me connect to myself. This simple practice I find is most important and I am now finding that it also soothes me when I am feeling upset or stressed.
Since the program, I have more confidence than I used to and am learning to have faith and trust in myself. I am more willing to have a go at new things and If I feel blocked, I am now able to go within and ask why am I blocked and then find my own answer. Because of this I got the courage to expand my Youtube channel and move into sharing a more spiritual content. I am standing in my power more in all aspects of my Life Work, music, and relationships.
For the first time in my life, I started feeling
I had just completed my first unsuccessful IVF cycle and was about to start the next cycle in 3 months time, when I was introduced to Tamika and the path of the goddess by a beautiful mutual friend, for whom I’m eternally grateful.
I had also just had endometriosis removed that my Dr suggests had been growing for at least 3 years, it had spread through my bowel, stomach, bladder, fallopian tubes, ovaries and was spreading into my back.
Clearly, I had issues going on that needed to be addressed!
As a child I was sexually molested from the age of 8 years old for 8 years, and into my adult life I continued incredibly unhealthy relationships with men, mainly because I didn’t know any different. I had zero respect for my body.
This led me on a journey of personal development, which was great for knowledge in my mind, but in reality my body was completely shut down, I was totally numb. Numb to any feelings, and I didn’t know how to feel happy or sad, excited or angry. I was void of all feelings and emotions, and would constantly repeat to myself “I just have to get through this and everything will be ok.” Amazing the coping mechanisms we adapt to!
I wore a “good-girl”, people-pleasing mask, and goddamn I wore it well.
In the first two days of the course, I honestly wasn’t present at all. I was still repeating my mantra to myself, “just get through this,” but something happened on the last day.
I let my guard down or something, I’m not entirely sure. I felt filled with glowing light, a sense of calm came over me and I felt connection. For the first time in my entire life, I started feeling. I felt so many feelings including anger, sadness, happy, pure love and joy. I experienced a massive release, and I knew it was just the beginning.
I left with a taller posture, and feeling more feminine. It’s hard to explain, but I walked away a different person and lighter. I feel softer and not so hard and protective of myself. Even my skin and eyes are glowing.
The incredible sisterhood of love and nurturing formed within the other ladies was just amazing.
Its been 2 months now since completing level one, and its definitely been a journey, I’m now allowing myself to sit, breath and experience every feeling and emotion as they rise to the surface, I’m more present when my fiancé and when I make love, I no longer leave my body. I’m totally present, to feel and love every moment, even telling him what I want or don’t want in bed. That was a big step for me.
Our day-to-day communication is so much more evolved and I have noticed I’m a lot less defensive than I use to be. I’m calmer and relaxed.
I never did fall pregnant the second time around, which has actually been the biggest blessing, as I feel like I actually rebirthed myself.
I know our little baby is waiting patiently until I’m fully ready, not much longer now.
Thank you Tamika and your amazing team, you have truly changed my life. xxx
Rachel Ward, AGE 41
Transformational Life Coach
Healing my adoption abandonment wounds
My name is Sharron and I am 45 years old.
When I signed up for the Path of the Goddess, it was just an inner knowing screaming at me to go. The money, time off, family commitments etc just didn’t block me. It was a big YES!
Don’t get me wrong, I was scared. It felt like I was going to vomit. I knew this was going to be big!
Well, it was! This was the real beginning to the softening of my masculine, the opening of my heart and womb, a total embodiment from my head to my body.
Before Level 1 I could not “feel” anything, so blocked and conditioned not to feel.
The POG has given me permission to “feel”, “connect”, “unravel” and listen to what I really need.
It’s given me permission to be braver, to remove the masks of masculine armour that has been keeping me safe.
I’m adopted so my self worth, abandonment and shame have been driving my life unconsciously for 45 years. With the support from Tamika and my sister goddesses, I have the courage to ask and listen to my little girl.
In time and with my new daily practices I am peeling back the layers.
Life is like an ocean. Sometimes the waves are bigger then others, but they are all beautiful.
Thank you Tamika for your love and support. I am so grateful.
Sharron Lindley, 45, Gold Coast, Australia
I shed an entire lifetime of religious repression
I used to be tired in every way, I was deeply unwell and had been for many years both emotionally and physically. I had a deeply unhealthy relationship with food and my body image which resulted in me binging and restricting my food intake for most of my adult life. I was plagued by the cruellest of comments from the mean girl inside my head. Not only was I a workaholic and a stress head, I was plain miserable, more than a little angry and frustrated as hell.
That’s who I was at the start of my 29th year of life. A person that would do anything to be approved of, I had given all my power away in the pursuit of approval, silencing myself in a shroud of black clothing, agreeability, conformity and masculinity.
Was I even a woman anymore?
I didn’t feel even an ounce of femininity in my body.
Shortly after, I decided that this was not how I wanted to spend the next decade of my life so I signed up to Tamika’s Path of the Goddess program. I really resonated with the idea of coming back into alignment with my divine feminine self.
Before the program I set the intention that I would find peace in my mind and love for myself in my heart. What I received and learnt about myself was so much more than just that intention. I shed an entire lifetime of religious repression. I saw how I had repressed all that was beautiful, powerful and sacred about being a woman.
The program was the catalyst for a sequence of some of the most beautiful, spiritual and deeply personal experiences of my life. Those revelations I had during the program have profoundly changed my life. All these experiences were made all the more beautiful because of the lady tribe we built throughout the program.
I suppose looking back now over my journals I realise how much my life has changed since then. My relationships with family, friends and workmates have changed so much, but this is because I have changed so much. I can say that I have found peace in my life and a deep love for myself.
So here I am at the start of my 30th year of life and I am healthy, vital, I wear bright colours and speak my truth! I have found my creativity, and a zest for life. It doesn’t mean that I don’t lose my way sometimes but I now have a road map back to myself.
Clair Twaddle, 30, QLD, Australia
Clair Twaddle, 30, QLD, Australia
I blamed my family and my partner for my unhappiness and lack of energy
I guess I was at that point in my life; children, same routines, not happy. I blamed my family and my partner. My energy was dispersing into my family.
I decided to change something; anything.
So after Christmas, I changed my diet and started exercising regularly. Physical was sorted but my emotional / spiritual self was still crying out.
A few free seminars had come up on my news feed, one was a sound healing which I go to now and love, the second was the Path of The Goddess. Yes, I loved the seminar, but wasn’t sure if it resonated with me. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go, or if I could afford to.
One day I made the decision out of the blue and my partner fully supported me. He’d seen a slight change in me and knew it would serve me even if it was to get me out of my comfort zone for 3 days. I’d been a mother for 16 years and now it was bloody time to think about myself.
I wasn’t sure how I felt after the 1st day. I thought I’d be elevated in a place far from here, I was wrong. It had stirred things in me. I found it haunting, I felt a sense of heaviness, and I really wasn’t sure what was going on. However, over the next 2 days I realised I was with a very special tribe of women and learning about the divine feminine just made sense to me. By day 3 I’d amazed myself and I signed up for level 2 with no hesitation.
I find the post program online support group really does support you with this work. Most things that are coming into my life now are about the divine feminine and releasing the old wounds I’ve carried. It’s a slow process for me as I do have lots of children to attend to, but I’m a completely different person to whom I was last year. I feel I have a zest for life and if I’m not feeling in the best mood then that’s ok too. I need to know myself in life and only I can do this. I am learning to connect with myself and my inner feelings and emotion. The goddess team have given me all the tools and support I need so for me its onwards and upwards.
Diane Harpin, age 47
Gold Coast Mother
I’d seen psychologists, psychiatrists and counsellors with no changes
I am Roxanne Hamlin, I live in Bundaberg, Queensland and I am 33 years old. The way I found the Path of the Goddess was, well…I believe it found me.
During a time in my life I felt I had nothing left to give. In hindsight now, I truly believe that the Universe heard my call that day and she answered with an ad that popped up on my Facebook account, which I just booked and didn’t give it a second thought, it gave me “something” to look forward to.
My life for as long as I could remember, was one big obstacle. I was unhappy, frustrated, pessimistic, and depressed. I had previously tried to self-harm, had been admitted into mental health, seen psychiatrists, psychologists, counsellors, been on different kinds of prescription medications, and was just broken.
I had no idea what to really expect when I arrived to the program, but by the time it was over, I had found a deep connectedness to myself that I never even knew existed and during the two days I laughed, cried, bonded, danced, sang and felt something I hadn’t felt in a very long time; pure happiness and joy.
The Path of the Goddess was a deep healing experience for me. Tamika is beautiful; she is full of wisdom, full of compassion. She is grounded and present, and above all she a loving soul that touches people in such a profound way.
I discovered what it truly means to connect with beautiful, empowering women in a sacred space free of judgement or limitation and now, who I proudly call my sisters. Since doing the Path of the Goddess, literally every aspect of my life has changed, I am no longer on prescription medications, I no longer see the world the same, as I am no longer am the same.
In short this program has given me the tools to heal the layers that were holding me down, and through that I have awakened my inner goddess that I never knew existed.
Today I now stand feeling free, at peace, nourished, full of love and an abundance of happiness. I am only on the beginning of my journey, and can only see love and infinite growth from here.
Roxanne Hamlin, 33, Bundaberg, QLD, Australia
From narcissism to love and connection
My life before Level 1 may have looked perfect from the outside, but the reality was that I felt stuck in an unhappy chapter of my life. Every day I pushed on feeling tired, unfulfilled, unappreciated and overwhelmed. My marriage was no longer a happy one, and had become toxic and abusive. Despite losing myself and struggling with depression, I tried so hard to make it work to keep the family together. There was a constant nagging feeling inside of me that there was something missing, a yearning for something I needed, but wouldn’t know until I found it.
Around this time I started meditating and also a self-care practice. I recognised that my marriage was over and separated from my husband but we continued living together with our 3 children. It was then that I began searching for answers, asking for a sign to lead me in the right direction. My best friend led me to Tamika and her work ignited a spark inside of me. A wave of relief hit me as I realised that her work would lead me to what had been missing in myself! I knew her work would lead me to the part of me that was dying to be opened up and explored.
The idea of manifesting excited me and I recall sitting on my bed at night looking at the stars and calling in my true love, my soul mate. I imagined this would take a couple of years as I felt I had more work to do on myself. Having shared 15 years with my ex-husband, I was now longing to be free of the narcissism and toxic energy, but fear and self-doubt held me there.
After getting to know myself again and rebuilding my self-esteem, I focused on manifesting and drawing in what I desired in my life. Much sooner than I expected, the energy of a wonderful man drew me towards him in a way I couldn’t explain and I knew he was meant to be in my life. We both felt the same way and so began our relationship. But I couldn’t understand why I was still stuck in the house with my ex. I felt I needed help to move forward; to confront my fears, to help me follow my heart without hesitation and doubt. It was then that I saw Tamika’s Level 1 and registered.
Although I needed every bit of spare cash to buy my own car and household items for moving, I realised the program was an investment in my future and that of my children. Initially I hesitated, thinking about the time away from my children and the difficulty in arranging care for them, but I knew I would find a way to make it work.
Level 1 was exactly what I needed. I released a lot of pain and fear, feeling safe and supported by the incredible ladies within the group. The time away from the outside world together with an inward focus enabled me to delve deeper into myself and reconnect with my feminine essence. I felt softer yet stronger, clear, confident and empowered.
Immediately after Level 1, I moved out of the house I owned with my ex and moved to the Sunshine Coast, where I’d always dreamed of living but never imagined it to be possible. My life is now full of joy; it is calmer, easier and so much happier. It is full of love and I can now see the beauty that surrounds me. The stress and resistance that I felt has lifted and I feel lighter.
This work has helped me to feel more receptive, vulnerable, and compassionate. A softness that once felt scary and weak. Having learned to keep an open heart and to follow my heart over my head, this work has deepened my relationships in both love and friendship. I feel a greater sense of love and connection particularly with my partner. Our relationship is vastly different from my previous one. I feel cherished, respected, appreciated, supported and equal. We compliment one another.
I feel more confident in speaking my truth and doing what feels right for me. In the past, I felt more comfortable giving to others through acts of love and kindness, giving of myself, my time and attention but I often found it difficult to receive. I feel that my self-worth has improved through doing this work and I now accept and receive with a genuine smile and sense of gratitude.
My life is so much richer having discovered the joy in feeling and being present in each moment. I try to practice daily self-love and gratitude to nurture my soul and have found that people are more drawn to me when I feel happy and vibrant within myself.
Denise Brew, Sunshine Coast, Australia
Full time Mother
Found self-worth, learned to say no, and her business and income exploded
A little over 2 months ago, I completed Level 1 Path of the Goddess workshop with Tamika Hilder. Before Level 1 I had done quite a lot of self-development work in various forms and felt that I was doing OK – not perfect of course, but OK. I had been through a variety of challenging and stressful periods in my life – as most people do, but seriously thought I had reconciled them well. It turns out I was wrong!
I began to see advertisements for Tamika’s Path of the Goddess Workshop everywhere – or so it seemed. I didn’t seem to be able to escape them so I decided to take the plunge, and book in for the Level 1 workshop. I had to override the fear that whispered in my head, trying to make me question my faith in my intuition. I have always struggled with faith in the unknown. I live in my head and analyse most things, rather than feeling them so it took a great deal of courage to book in; I am so glad I did.
It is very difficult to put into words the experience of the workshop. On a purely surface level, the workshop is put together beautifully with fantastic information which is shared in a professional and concise way. However, more importantly is the space that Tamika and her team create. Over the three days, despite extremely deep, confronting work I felt nurtured, supported and safe at all times. The entire weekend was thought provoking, deeply moving and immensely emotional, culminating in one of the most profound, primal experience I have ever had in a meditation/healing environment. I am sure every person who attended the workshop had a different experience but the energy of the workshop was primed for big shifts to occur.
Since the workshop I have been meditating regularly and keeping in contact with the Path of the Goddess group through the webinars and Facebook. The support programme after the workshop is a must, in my opinion to keep building on the breakthroughs from the workshop. I have had such a sense of peace since the workshop it is quite amazing. Previously, I always felt something was missing; I felt a little disconnected from it all.
What the workshop taught me was that I was actually disconnected from myself! Looking inside is without a doubt the way forward for all of us. Without the connection to self we are like kites adrift – totally reactive to the situation or the environment. The Path of the Goddess workshop gives you the tools and practical skills to build this connection to self and importantly, to believe in this connection.
One of the main questions I asked at the workshop was about my life purpose. I had always let fear stop me from teaching Reiki, which I trained to do over 7 years ago. I always felt I was not good enough and nothing of any value to offer to anyone. I have felt into this fear and become best of friends with it. This fear has been part of my programming, but also past life programming. There are many, many layers to this journey and I am excited to be on it. I have now put steps in place to begin offering Reiki treatments again with a view to holding workshops by next year. This is without a doubt due to the Path of the Goddess work.
I would thoroughly recommend taking the workshop if you feel at all called to it. It will open a door which, if you are brave enough to step through it, in my opinion opens a whole new world. Thanks Tamika and her amazing crew!
Karen Netherwood, 49
Sunshine Coast, Australia
Director of Student Accommodation
From fear to valuing her healing gifts
Low self-worth, emotional eating and my life was full of distractions
Prior to Tamika’s Level 1 Program, I had low self-worth and emotional eating was commonplace. My life was full of distractions. I was working extremely hard, going over and above for everyone in my life, at the same time neglecting my own needs and wants.
There were days when I couldn’t even get to work and when I did, I left at the end of the day in tears without knowing why. The days I wasn’t at work were spent in bed, often coupled with uncontrollable crying. It seemed like a way of life. Putting on a smile and pretending everything was okay became normal whenever I came into contact with anyone.
Tamika’s link popped up on Facebook and her work completely resonated with me. I knew something wasn’t right and I was completely drawn to it. It couldn’t have come at a better time.
Money was tight, but nothing could stop me from getting there. I utilised my tax return and did all I could to make it to Queensland, including sharing a room with another girl, which made it financially easier. I was going, no matter what.
After returning from Level 1, I went right back into work, keeping really busy. Within a couple of months, I completely came apart. I began to relive trauma that I had suppressed over the years with alcohol, drugs and food. The processes I went through at Level 1, allowed the deeply suppressed memories to begin to surface, as well as the feelings I had buried. I was able to see that my life of distraction prior to this work was an unconscious attempt at numbing my past.
Then, I quit my job. I was unable to fully commit to the work I was doing and felt it was unsustainable at the level I was doing it at. Pay decreased massively to the point where I was living below my means. I got to the point where I had no other option than to ask for help. For six months I was financially supported by the Salvation Army. Suicidal thoughts were not uncommon at this time.
I did all I could to make my way to Bali to complete Tamika’s Level 2. It was incredible. After returning from Bali, I continued Tamika’s processes. By doing this I gave myself the down time and permission to release deep trauma. Sometimes this took days. I realise now, the days that seemed most unproductive were the most productive of all, as I was forming deeper, more meaningful relationships with my sister and daughter with their daily check-ins. I was also finally giving myself the time and love that I deserve.
I was doing the practices (womb-work) that Tamika taught me every single morning and started having severe period pain like never before. This was the healing and clearing of deep feminine wounds I had carried. My moon cycle shifted from the from full moon (masculine) to new moon (feminine). I was now in more of a feminine flow and would bleed around the new moon.
When I returned from Bali I literally couldn’t complete one full push up. Today I am lifting 90kg and I’ve regained my strength, both physically and mentally. I have now faced new challenges that I never would have imagined possible, such as sky diving and leaving a corporate world with financial security to work in a field I’m passionate about.
I no longer have the tendency or wish to stay in bed.
Since Level 2, my income and client base have tripled and good things are happening in abundance, life is in flow. I have developed an incredible bond with my daughter and I have surrounded myself with positivity through a network of great friends and support. At the same time I have let go of toxic relationships that no longer serve me.
I have so much gratitude for Tamka and the work that she does. I could not imagine what my life would be like now if I hadn’t stumbled across her post that day.